and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!
Sunday, June 09, 2013
SHAME IN MY PRAISE
The Lord revealed to me today during worship a very significant observation. Even though for the longest time I have been aware of what He showed me today full out, but.....I discounted it as being humble on my part. It is not humility.
How do I know this? Well, today, my Heavenly Daddy pointed out to me that every time my hands went up to praise Him, my head would go down. Okay, yeah I knew I did this. And thought it was how I worshipped all along in humility. But, now He had me pay attention to what I was feeling inside when I did this. It was not humility. It was shame. WoW!
So, He had me bring my head up every time I would put it down when I lifted my hands unto Him in praise. I felt like a yo-yo today. Up and down. Up and down. I am so glad that this was only between Him and I.
So what is the shame? Unworthiness. Which is even heighten more with what I am going through now.
My Daddy does NOT want me to feel shame. He is a loving Daddy (not like my earthly daddy) that does NOT condemn me.
So why is it still so very hard for me......especially when it comes to praising Him? Because I still find it very difficult to see myself loved and of worth.
The root of shame is even deeper than I thought......