and has now come when the true worshipers will worship
the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the
kind of worshipers the Father seeks." - John 4:23
My Heavenly Daddy is healing
me from the inside out.
Transparency is Real.
Many times painful.
Daddy let me be secure in You only!
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
TO FEEL ALIVE
I've been digging in reserves with putting on my best mask at times in order just to get through a day and function in life. Not having to explain the deadness inside. Just going through the motions.
If there is a good side, its that my heart is more raw than ever. I guess that's good? But when the knife cuts into my rawness to see if I "am done," it hurts way too much.
Why do I feel worse then I ever have n my journey? Is it because Iam actually feeling and don;t know it?
Just want to be in those "loving" arms of my Daddy. in glory. I want to so bad to "feel" love rgtw thw pIN pain to stop \\ Don;t know the extent of love as I;bve nevery had anyone really love me
I want to isolate so bad. Give up.
Close this blog.
God's breaking of me is very painful. Daddy only want you! You! You!
My little girl cannot handle the emptiness and pain inside any more. shes dead and tired
The older one keeps it together some how in order not to have a breakdown. So manu times it feels like the older one can't hold it together any more she does it for the little one but for how long now....can she keep this up>?
All she asks for is to feel alive. What's joy? She was that one once before shutting down. Before depression and oppression bcame a part of her daily existence. She's doesnt remember what it feels to be alive....was so very long ago. has a few glimpses as a youngster then it fades
Daddy hold me hold me hold mehold me hold me hold me hold me dhold me hold me only you Daddy can heal
There is a day coming when satan will be cast down --- the gates of hell will not prevail